Yesterday I walked around the whole morning feeling blue. Ready to burst into tears over anything and everything. I kept wondering what my problem was. I concluded it was because I was just so busy and all I wanted a moment to breathe…to sit…to relax and not run to and fro.
My smart phone battery has been giving me all sorts of trouble lately, and needs to be charged every 3-4 hours recently. Of course I didn’t have the car charger with me, so it died during my morning of work, errands, and kid-carpools. I didn’t get to check my email until mid-afternoon, after BabyMuffin and I had run to a few stores after I picked him up from preschool. That’s when I saw the email. The message that let me know that Jim had passed yesterday morning after a long battle with cancer. He’s the father of Erin, the gal who was my mother’s helper for a few summers.
I immediately broke into tears upon reading that news. I am glad Jim is at peace now, but my heart aches for his wife, Ann, and their three children. It totally sucks for them. Ann has lost the love of her life, and Erin and her brothers have lost their father, their Dad.
It put my morning blues into perspective. I was sad and stressed because I wanted time…but thank God I have time. Time to work, time to pick up kids, time to shop and run errands. Time to live and be with those I love.
Yesterday afternoon and evening, I made an effort to hug my kids and The Husband a little tighter, plant more kisses than usual. Last night, instead of getting irritated by The Husband wanting to cuddle up to me when I was already hot (and he would’ve made me sweaty!), I just thought of how Ann is no longer able to snuggle up to her Jim. It changed my attitude. I am grateful for my family, even as my heart breaks for Ann and her children.
That is heartbreaking.
You have a good point, it’s very difficult when the person you love so much is no longer around for you to hug.